For whatever reason, I was thinking today about a time in my life when I was acting quite irresponsibly. At least that is how it must have appeared from an outsider’s perspective. To me, and with a goodly measure of hindsight, what felt to be intrepid was probably pretty rash. And maybe even a little naive and dumb.
I was also thinking today about times in my life when I was acting quite fearlessly and how life was just one long ride of incredible excitement. Every day was new and different and challenges abounded as a result of this fearlessness. I was riding a big wave and somehow managing to stay on the board. I look back and think, Huh. How did that even work?
Fearless? Irresponsible? Is there even a line between the two? Maybe life is one big Venn diagram . . . a symbol of where we place our confidence in life, in love, in ourselves. I don’t know. In that we are never completely aware of the full consequences of our actions, it is unclear as to how willy-nilly my behavior truly was. And continues to be. Still, it seems to be true that all kinds of crazy and dumb can lead to positive outcomes. It sometimes comes down to the question of What we are willing to do for the pursuit of love and happiness? What kind of risk are we willing to take?
Click on the link below and print out this journaling exercise. Do some free associating with the diagram. I’m not suggesting any empirical outcome. I am simply asking you to consider that what you might carry as a regret might not have been as dumb and irresponsible as you think it was or is.
Life happens. Consider the alternative. I’d rather be living in the Overlap or even the Outer Fringes . . . knowing that I am willing to take the risk to try. Just try.
[Three-hole punch this exercise and put it in your special journaling binder. It is so rewarding to look back over writing that is honest and that encourages you to grow. My journaling friends all say that they are glad they have saved their writing in one binder or notebook. They also say that they are happy that they dated their writing and recorded their location. You might be in the park, at your desk, or on a ferry. You might be on an exotic vacation or you might be waiting for your laundry to finish drying at the laundromat. No matter where you are when you are recording your thoughts and feelings, when re-reading your entries at a later date . . . your spatial memory will trigger the Feelings of Epiphany you felt when you were discovering your Voice and your Truth. Happy writing!]